Reminder of what soldiering's about, even in Civil Affairs
The thing is, while I don't want to be a soldier again, I do want to do my part - and earn my honor - in the Long War and I want to participate in peace operations, preferably in the civil-military area. So, I have to weigh honor and my belief in civil-military peace ops versus my reluctance to return to lower-enlisted soldiering; 2 out of 3 says, 'not perfect, but you do the best you can with what you have to work with'. 3 out of 4, if you add the fact that I'm not moving forward in my life otherwise, and a part of me has already decided that an honest attempt to become a 38B is the next thing for me to do.
If I join Civil Affairs, I would like to be a member of the locally based 353rd Civil Affairs, whose headquarters is in Fort Wadsworth, Staten Island. This Fort McCoy Triad article about the 353rd's pre-deployment training last summer is a stark reminder of what I'd be getting myself into if I re-enlisted: 353rd Civil Affairs conducts premobilization training by Rob Schuette, August 24, 2007.
Soldiers from the 432nd Civil Affairs Battalion are about to engage enemy targets during a convoy live-fire exercise. Col. Mark Calabrese, 353rd Civil Affairs Command, is observing from the turret. (Photo by Lt. Col. Robert Bensburg)
It would be going back to a place in my life I thought I'd left forever 7 years ago, and this time, far more than my first time, I'd be getting myself into some serious, serious shit.